What about...?

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  Posted by Tweek October 25, 2012 - Filed in Personal Journal - 1,466 views
  

  I have been lookin' for work, outside of my business, for better than a year, now.  All kinds of work, doin' just about anything. 

  And I love how all my "well-meaning" friends are lookin' out for me. with suggestions, and jobs they hear about, or see, online.  And up to now, I've been pretty upbeat about it all.  But...(there's always a but, ain't there?) I'm gettin' a little aggravated.  One, I'm up at the crack of dawn, online EVERY morning, puttin' in apps, sendin' out resume's, checkin' on apps/res' sent. And Two, I've been doin' this routinely for a year, so I know the "ins-and-outs" of the job hunt.  What aggravates me, is the fact that these "well-meaning friends, have no compunction, of suggesting that I take a job, that they themselves wouldn't work at.  Like...flippin' burgers. Or they want to tell me how to go about following up, or updating my resume'. 

  Good Lord!  I've done all that...and more.

  Now, I do these job searches, on top of doin' any cleaning work, that I have lined up.  Or working for my landlords somewheres (they have many properties), in exchange for rent.  In other words, I work my rent off.  (As well as what's left of my butt...)  But BEFORE I "sing for my supper", I go online. Usually between 5-8 in the mornin'.  Then if I do go someplace, I check out any "now hiring" jobs I might see along the way. (Such as the dry cleaner, or the corner store).  But nothin's happenin' for me.  And I'm a little "anxious" about the length of time, this is takin'.  My landlords have been patient, but that too, is runnin' thin. I'm feelin' pressured, and that makes me more anxious...and then, I get more aggravated.  Vicious cycle. I'm tryin' as hard as I know how!!! I'm tryin' to take people's "help", in the spirit intended.  So, why is it, that I find myself gettin' more and more defensive and irritated? I also know my maker, has a plan, it just hasn't happened yet.  I'm only hopin' it'll happen, in "the nick of time".

  Cause, I really need it to. 

  Just blowin' off some steam here, folks. Writin' it down, is cathartic for me. The one thing I don't need right now?  More advice. I do care what you think, and I do appreciate, your thoughts and prayers.  More than you know.

  I need encouragement, is all. 

  Ride Free 

  Tweek