Ya know, sometimes things just kinda gang-up on ya, don't they?
Now, this ain't no dam snivel-fest... I know where to find sympathy in the dictionary... It's somewhere between sh*t and syphilis, right? "No use whining cuz everbuddy gots 'der own problems" right? So, I guess I'm just sharing the load... Feel free to return the favor!
Money... it comes and goes. "Sometimes the light's all shining on me, other times I can barely see. Lately it occures to me... What a long strange trip it's been!" Thank you Mr Garcia for those words... Sometimes I'm flush, other times it's lean as hell... Just kinda trying not to worry, or hose too many beers or guzzle too many R&C's (rum n coke)... Funny, alcohol is a depressant and folks tend to drink more when they are depressed... Kinda like a dog chasing his tail... or maybe a snake eating his tail... Soon he eats all of himself and 'blink'... he's gone. Had a few friends go out like that... That's why I remember, take it easy. It'll change, guaranteed!
Roommates... need I say more? Great folks to live with, big hearts and generous. They are STILL roommates and I am STILL me! Have a real hard time living with a lover, let alone a sister and bro-in-law. I'm a typical Cancer, home is sanctuary... It's where I go to shut out the world... and a small slice of the world is living with me. Believe me when I say "I have had WORSE!". Try rooming with two 1%er's that do 'Strong-Arm' gigs, deal crank and work part-time as bouncers to come up with the rent every month... and it's never quite enuff... Gotta write that one down and share it w/y'all.
TAXES!!!!! Holy She-ite... I TOTALLY get it. I KNOW why I should pay my taxes... When I got myself Retired, a couple big ol checks came for me... Round 50G. So I paid 2 years worth of bills, bought my motorhome to live in and my Harley for transportation. Don't need no steekin car! That pretty much wiped it out and I was good with that... Then I did the taxes for that year... omg... I owed $12,000 in taxes cuz all the money I got was taxable income? That wasn't what my buddy told me...damdamdamit! So I have ignored the IRS as long as I can, they finally sent me the notice that they were going to attach my pension and Social Security... They can do that? Yep! Soooo, I made 'em an offer I HOPE they don't refuse! Talked to a Shyster (lawyer) that is a Tax-Dude... Wanted $1500 ($750 upfront) to make my case. I told him if I had that kind of money to throw around, I'd just pay the bill! We'll see how THAT goes... All I can do is try, right? That one is weighin heavy on my shoulders... BUT, that's why they're big, right? (my shoulders...)
Don't gimme any of that "God won't give ya more than you can handle" crap... You ever have a close friend commit suicide? Guess he/she had more than they could handle... yeah? Yeah... So, while I DO have faith in a Creator/God/Grand Poo-Bah-of-the-Universe, I believe that my angels and ancestors are here to help guide and protect me. I talk to them and they talk back... Just have to pay attention... Be aware, spend more time lookin up than lookin down. I've been on this ol ball-o-mud for almost 58 years. So I KNOW that things will change, they always do. That gives me hope and encouragement to face my roommates, scarcity of money, the IRS and the leakin-freekin tranny gasket on my scoot. Thank the Creator for my Lady, Dove. One of the best parts of coming home, ya know?
Thanx for reading my drivel snivel poor-me grousing about it all! I do feel some relief at 'dumping' in front of all y'all, share some of yer bad/snivelly/grumpies with me and cheer me up... I'll have somebuddy to commiserate with and we all know that if somebody is worse off than we are... we can always say "Hell, look at him/her, I could be a lot worse off! Guess my life ain't so bad after all!" There's a cheery thought!
Later Friends,
Edge "BetterNow" Walker
I'm gonna go have my second beer....
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